This month has been long.
Bruno’s 1st, 2nd and 3rd months seemed to fly by leaving me thinking I never really had an infant. I miss the sleepy scrunched up days of his (relative) tininess and the way he could fall asleep on his dad’s chest when the rest of the world was just too much.
Sigh. Month 4 has been long. Did I mention that? This month of teething and nap times and bed times and screaming. My baby screams now? WTF? I used to be able to take him and bounce him when he was screechy and fussy and he would quiet down within moments and now? Now he requires actual work. Ugh.
Don’t get me wrong. I’d much rather do the “work” that Bruno requires as opposed to the work I get paid for. My successes with BHH are much more rewarding and the smiles?
This month, Bruno’s 4th month, has been challenging. Car rides are no longer an automatic nap and nap times require coercing and cajoling. My baby now knows how to scream. And if it wasn’t for the fact that he was screaming, I’d think he’s enjoying it.
Along the way, he’s done some pretty amazing things that I think I’ve lost sight of due to, you know, all the screaming. He plays with TOYS now. He will actually reach out and grab a toy! And PLAY with it! And by “play with”, I of course mean “chew on.” Exciting, right? Also the spitting! I mean sure, it’s gross, but it’s a thing! That he DOES now! And there have been 5 or 6 times when he almost giggled. He hasn’t quite strung together a full force baby giggle fit but he’s sofreakingclose! Even still it’s awesome and it gives me a toothache.
Have I mentioned he has rolled over more than that one time he did it last month? Last week, he rolled over 3 times in one day! And the next day he did it in front of someone other than JUST ME! So we’ve got witnesses now! One witness actually, but who’s counting?!
(I’m working on catching it on video so bear with me, readers. Of course the 2nd to last time he did it Hoagey and I made such a big deal that he freaked a little and almost started to cry so it may be a while before he’s not scared to do it again… my bad.)
I’m tired. This month has seemed longer than his first 3 combined and it’s not even over yet. And I know the 1st month was challenging, too, but all I can seem to remember is the cuddling and the nuzzling and the nursing and the constant napping and the “OMG I have a baby and he’s the CUTEST!” I feel guilty admitting it but, yeah, this month has been hard and I hope I look back and only remember the almost giggles and smiles and rollings over.
***Tonight we go to our first Phillies game of the season and also the first Phillies game where we bring along Bruno. When we bought the tickets he could still sleep anywhere and I thought, “no big deal!” But as the hour approaches, ever so slowly, I’m thinking it might be a total freaking disaster. But who knows! The Ryan Hoagey in him might really emerge today and he’ll be SO happy to be at A BASEBALL GAME that he just sits and takes it all in. Keep your fingers crossed for me, Internet!